Monday, January 23, 2012
I think I've paid my dues. I hope I have. First world problems aside, they're all I've known so I'm comfortable in saying that.
I'm feeling strange tonight. My skin doesn't fit quite right. I know why and yet I want to say I don't know why.
I don't know what to make of this thing called "life". It's bizarre. It's a bit unsettling. I'm aware that the ever changing rules cannot apply and yet I try my best to apply them.
Sometimes I feel like the goldfish that you took out of the bowl. You didn't do it to watch it struggle, you just did it to watch it live. You had no idea that the act of taking it out of that bowl doomed it.
I just don't know what my bowl is. For the life of me, I don't know who took me out of the one I had.
Maybe it was Me.
I can betroth my experiences in this life to you but it will not change what you endure. It can only enhance your interpretation of endurance by way of what your old Man recalled at this moment in time, in this one place we inhabit.
People will forget what you said. They most certainly will eventually forget what you did. But I swear to you, above all, this one thing. They will never forget how you made them feel.
That's all they carry with them. That's every one's After.
This world is an inconvenient train station where we're all jostling for position on the platform. If I could give you any bit of sound advice it would be to not buy a ticket. Just hop the fence, blend in with the crowd & when no one is looking... hijack that son of a bitch.
Ride it to where the winds cannot recall your name. There you'll find freedom. There you'll find truth. There you'll find your own After. That's what we're all looking for... as it were.
And always Talk Hard.
Even in Bengali.